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I am a mother of three year olds, but also a work in government departments as the wife of a man. My husband and I are introduced to meet, and that conditions can be quite another, and then through the salt is not short of love is not married.
My husband is a pragmatic person, not sweet talk does not express his inner feelings, and even less to communicate the spirit of things and I rarely pay attention to listening to me. In fact, he told me was good, compared to accommodate me. But you know, in the cultural sector as a woman, the feelings of the soul is more abundant, the exchange will need more spiritual. This is my spirit because it is easy derailment.
An organizational process of local events, I met a cultural company owner, 40 years old, the spirit of my husband who did not look pretty, but very humorous, and really know how to find topics, how to communicate with me. Start with the gang when eaten several meals, then we leave contact information, usually on the phone talk for an hour, and then we can say that the network is crazy talk, I think this is really wonderful, even began To him down from the clouds.
I ask myself that I was not cheated? Think of the children around the lovely, kind and honest husband, I secretly told myself to grasp the scale. But this style. I still can not refuse to travel with him, walk, mountain climbing, but fortunately he knows my heart a family's bottom line, tried a hope that after I refused sexual contact, and no longer force me, I know his heart is very eager to all my pay, I have also almost out of control before. The feeling of want to eat but not eat more attractive than the affair itself, it, in addition to sex between us, the even more intimate every day text message, telephone.
This relationship has been maintained like a lover for a year, even in the Valentine's Day, I think of only him and bought him a gift, he sent a designer handbags to me. The home, her husband in the story of a child, a Happy Valentine's Day would not say. In the hearts of her husband, he did not need the expression of emotion, right? I thought, who cares, anyway, I did not betray his real derailment, anyway, I had someone make up emotional emptiness, now there are whole families here, and more perfect thing ah!
I always thought he disguise it well, is not the case, her husband look at my eyes more and more complex, often hesitant, but he did not ask nothing, but to me more careful and considerate parents and children, and greetings to me and more of the. Once, her husband never drank even a person on the balcony drinking a bottle of liquor, drunk unconscious. Drink, he said many words to the effect that he was not good enough, can not make me really happy, that he actually loves me, he just can not express, but also that action is more appropriate than a bubble trivial life, he said I am really afraid leave him. He also hugged me and cried.
Then I learned that he always knew that my heart had others. I was very ashamed of feeling, very uncomfortable. I ventured to ask cultural business owner, he will for my wife and I divorce? He was silent, did not stand. Maybe he is just from me looking for that part of the lack of marriage, my life is nothing but a piece of his plain good dim sum, can not be the staple food. I rely on him more, because my world without him big ah. After her husband sober, or did not say anything, still in silence to pay for their families, still care for me has caused.
I always comfort myself in my heart, I do not have sex with other men is not wrong. I can not leave the culture of the company's boss, without him, my heart will be empty. Maybe, I really do not know enough to be a woman right. But I'm afraid of her husband suffering depression, for fear he finally could not stand no more do not reluctant to me and this house, I was very contradictory ....
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